8:232) Red 07-JUN-98 19:12

The only one. I'm the only one for him. He says it so confidently. I put in his CD, to his favorite song and felt bad. I love you. He says it almost everyday. hints at it, sometimes comes out right and says it directly. I snapped at him and told him to knock it off. He sounded so sad on the other end of the phone.

I wore his shirt today. The track and field one from Parchment. It wasn't the same thing as him, but it was better than nothing. I was warm even though it was cold outside.

He said he didn't want to fight anymore, about whether or not he loves me. He didn't like to fight with me about it. It mad him sad that he said it and all I did was yell at him. He didn't know how I felt. That's when i started crying.

Ozzy is not a good thing to be listening to right now.

Why can't he be like the other ones? Why does he have to insist that he loves me? Why can't he just take advantage of me and leave, like everyone else. It's only been two weeks...it feels like years...or at least more than 14 days.

"..Time after time, line after line you broke my...."

She called today. Mortality had slapped her in the face. Skin cancer. She said it so matter of factly, as if it wasn't the important thing. It's just there. On to the salvation of a community that was nothing without her. I wrote it out and posted it like she said. No one else seemed to notice either. Maybe not a big thing, since it's so easy to remove...but still... I felt as if I was the only one crying....