8:69) Ginny Little 19-JAN-98 17:06

i go to see the film titanic and i vicariously live a time of ostentatiously glorious chapeaus and dresses adorned with detail that flow and accent feminity...the impact of the event and the lives lost becomes a momentary reality that then lingers in the back of my mind, some sadness that pervades. mike reads a book. abbey sleeps on her favorite pillow curled into a ball of white fluff next to him. i reach through the wires wondering what part of my presence adds to the beauty i find here. feelings of unworthiness, inadequacy always walk in my hand clasped with sadness.

and then it turns to just a feeling of being blessed, to know warmth, real love, new and lifetime friendships, what else is there to happiness?

it is grey outside for another day. it wraps round my soul.