As i see people pass me by in the shopping mall. I stop As i stare into the eyes of an old woman, resembling a rotten prune, the wrinkles on her pale face so deep, each one has a story to tell. Her eyes, so magical. I look into those crystals, i can see the images of her life,the secrets never told, the hands never held, scars never healed, bruises by someone she never knew, the anger held back inside. She strolls away in her wheelchair, passing me by with a smile.
listen — Sarah Neyaz, in the voice cast for this edition
my bed is empty, I can't sleep today, i couldn't sleep yesterday. So, here i am, Could i be somewhere else? I always wanted to see the world through someone else's eyes, to see what things would look like.. I've spent time trying to be like someone else, i discovered i should be who i am. Sometimes I hate myself, sometimes i love myself, i could be another but i'd rather be myself.
listen — Sarah Neyaz, in the voice cast for this edition
we sometimes begin to hate the ones we loved so much. With some,love only lasts for a few weeks, a year, or a lifetime. Some find out that it was too dificult. Tired of compromising, and listening to whose fault it was, gettin sick of each other, and deciding who caused all the problems .Sometimes the things people say may not be what they meant. Temporary anger makes us say things to people we never really meant. I listen to what i said, and wish i kept my mouth shut. After i had hurt someone i then realized, what i had done. I coudln't take it back until it was too late The hate had overtaken the love.
listen — Sarah Neyaz, in the voice cast for this edition
I look around myself, and i'm trapped in a tiny room where there are no walls but there are people all around me instead, making a wall. Some holding me back some pushing me too far. When i've felt like I can't take anymore i'm so frustrated, i can't even cry, and no one undertsands what I'm going through. All the so called 'walls' enclose, as i become smaller and smaller, and become less noticable. Maybe it's better taht way so they'll leave me alone. People ask me what's wrong but they don't even care to listen to my answer, cus they're so wrapped up in their own little worlds. People keep demanding more and more from me, when all i have left is nothing . Can't they see it through my eyes? feelings of insanity rush through me, cus i know there's no chance to break free.
listen — Sarah Neyaz, in the voice cast for this edition
Worrying, worrying, worrying. That's all I've been doing. High school exams, life, friends...and more. The pressure of my parents expecting me to be as good as my brother in school. My brother The Doctor, that is. Can't I be myself, Why must I always be compared to him? I'm expected to be someone i'm not, someone who i'll never be. I want to live my own life, where no one is comparing me, and I AM myself. I'm sick of walking in my brother's footsteps. I want to walk on a new path, on my own path, my own way, away from all of this.
listen — Sarah Neyaz, in the voice cast for this edition
Editor’s note — the date in this header is corrupt in both surviving copies (“27-yes.98”); 27 May 1998 is the probable true date. Printed as it stands. See the colophon.
He said he loved me, then he fell in love with someone else. He said he'd be with me forever, then he was with someone else. I've learned that Nothing lasts forever, we all know hearts can change. Everytime, i 'm always the one who loses in the end, I always end up getting hurt no matter what. My hearts been broken, been squeezed so many times, that there's nothing left. I don't think i can love anyone anymore, I don't think I can ever be so close to anyone because i'm so afraid i'll lose them the minute I turn around. I choose to live this way, to live this lonely life of mine, cus anyways i'll always end up being alone.
listen — Sarah Neyaz, in the voice cast for this edition