Shawn Nicolen

8:117) Shawn Nicolen 03-FEB-98 10:24

FLOOD the waters rise The levies fail The sea has overstepped its bounds I've often thought I'd never fail But for the flood

(by Shane McDonald)

8:133) Shawn Nicolen 11-FEB-98 12:42

There is an endless quality to life. Nothing and Something defining the universe over and over again like strings of 1 10 11 100 101 110 111 1000 1001 1010 1100 1101 1110 1111. Endless cycles of joy and sadness, of living and realy living. Of woman and man complimenting eachother, of woman and man apart making this great emptiness inside. A chemically induced dream of joy of something you can never have leads to the truth about the way things are. Animals in a dance ages old with big brains looking to apply mathematics to something too complex to be broken down with human understanding, but we still try because it is in our nature to defy our nature. Pain and love and pain and something and nothing and together as one and laone as nothing. There is an endless quality to life. eeven words of love can hurt. Even words of love can hurt, so try to never speak them ever again, but you can't, but thats life.

8:137) Shawn Nicolen 14-FEB-98 12:03

Sometimes I find my words where i didn't put them. Thoughts written by someone I don't know anymore. Eulogies for someone I hadn't realized was past. Someone I admire for their ignorance.

8:140) Shawn Nicolen 17-FEB-98 22:04

I lay on my bed arms akimbo and wish I was someone else.

8:149) Shawn Nicolen 09-MAR-98 17:51

Ice ripping into my skin through a feeble spring coat that offers little protection. Almost didn't make it out of the driveway this morning, cars tires spinning faster than my eyes can keep track, burning the snow into ice. A short ten minute drive turns into 25 minutes. Five accidents on a short drive, flashing lights and a stray dog wondering what happened to the grass. People forget that icy roads are dangerous. Calls come in.. why does it tell me all circuts are busy? ...Call the telco. Look out my window and see the Kalamazoo Building.. hope Ginny is all right.. Hope the trees don't fall.. I wonder what ever happened to that stray dog?

8:192) Shawn Nicolen 06-MAY-98 12:54

Whipflash lightning snail pace of educational technology takes it nowhere but into circular arguements. How is it that so much gets accomplished but nothing gets done? I yawn as I am running down the stairs. Need more hot chocolate. More Rootbeer. Everything seems so far behind; dragged down by the weight of an ill-respected institution. I feel like i need to be institutionalized. Need some changes made to the web site? ... Lets Rock and Roll.

8:219) Shawn Nicolen 01-JUN-98 21:46

Sometimes I think we have finally found eachother, but then she gets quiet and sullen. It worries me, but she says that there is nothing wrong. We watch movies together, take walks; but oddly, we don't talk like we used to "before". I miss knowing her, even though we are closer than we have ever been.

8:225) Shawn Nicolen 04-JUN-98 18:12

I still remember that night well. I was crushing over a girl pretty bad.. life seemed like it was all misery and wanting what you can't have. I decided to go and find soemthing to distract me, so I went to visit an old friend of mine. Has was having some friends over that I didn't know.. and I felt somewhat the outsider. He saw me and asked what was wrong.. so I told him I was a bit depressed about life. He looked at me and said, "Shawn, the thing about life.. well, life is *wicked*, man."