8:82) Red 21-JAN-98 16:13

I refuse to cry. I hold it in as long as I can...I broke down a few days ago, after a call from my dad saying that they were going to put my dog down sometime that week...I wouldn't talk to my father about it and changed the subject...but as soon as I hung the phone up, I started sobbing..and the sobs turned into convulsions and finally, I went into the bathroom and threw up.... Then I cried on Saturday, when they put Rufus down. I got really drunk that night, cause my folks were having a party for my step-syblings and no one noticed. I called my friend Justin and he came over...I collapsed into his arms and cried until i nearly fell asleep. He took care of me, and made sure that I was ok before he left... I don't cry unless it's something really, really important...i can't, I won't. Crying is a weakness, and I don't put up with it at all..

(: RED :)