8:83) Katherine Blanke (KAT) 21-JAN-98 18:35

Lazy days make me wish for more hours in the day...maybe a 30-hour day to think all my thoughts, cry all my tears, laugh until my stomach bursts into a thousand pieces inside of me and to try and understand philosophy. Watching, thinking, listening makes me realize my own inadequacy in thought...how can one make the mind understand all these wonderful things that it refuses to decipher? How does one go about disciplining the mind from thinking what you don't wish to think? Sometimes I feel I am to burst out crying thinking of all I lose every second and other times the frustration of failing makes me want to run through the walls.

Ahhh, sanctuary in the arms on a couch, trading stories of learned trials and crafted art. The one thing I miss during the long hours of conforming hell is the way I am when surrounded by those arms, those thoughts, that laughter, those eyes and that smile.

It's when I realize everyone else, that I realize how small and average I am and how much learning I need to do of my own and not that of textbooks.

@!KAT